Week Six: How I am feeling!

I chose this picture because this is where I would like to be.  I remember being in place where I felt happy and like nothing could bother me.  Today I do not feel this way.  I'm not going to go in to details, for not to trigger anyone who may read this.  I would like to get back to a feeling of being happy and not let anything bother me.  Id like to laugh, be able to have a good time with friends and family and be able to live life to its fullest.  I feel like today that is not possible.  But with the help of my support system its becoming a little easier to start to begin to see my life slowly change.  And when I say slowly I mean slowly. Oh to be happy again.  I know my time will come, and that's just it, it will take some time. I believe that one day it will happen for me.  Its just a matter of when it does.  And when it does, well Ill be happy :).  In the meantime, I'll be using my skills and supports, to try and make it through this time period I seem to be stuck in.     I'm stuck in a rut that seems to get deeper as the days progress.  A rut that I can't get out of.  At least not on my own it seems.  I have so many things in my life to be happy for but at this point in my life it is so hard to be happy for them.  I have my family, friends, fiance, my wedding coming up.  Its just so hard to be happy when your stuck in this rut and can't get out.   

Week Five: Things that make me smile, laugh, and happy!!

1. My family
2. My fiance
3. My Goddaughter
4. My friends
5. My cats

These are just a few things that make me happy, smile and laugh.

First, my family. When my family gets together we have a wonderful time full of laughter.  Playing games and having conversations about the new things in our lives.  New jokes maybe that we have heard or ones that we have read that we have liked.  Remembering old memories that make us smile and laugh.

Second, my fiance.  He knows just when to make me smile especially when I'm feeling down.  He makes me laugh when I need a good laugh and overall makes me the happiest person in the world.  Without him I would be lost.

Third, my Goddaughter.  She is a handful, but a wonderful little girl.  she is only 2 but she is perfect in her own little way.  We spend hours laughing at each other and at nothing in particular.  Her smile sure lights up a room and makes every one smile with her.  She makes me so happy to be a part of her life.

Fourth, my friends.  I don't know what I would do without my friends. They are my biggest supports.  They are always there for me when I need something like a pick me up.  And for that they make me smile and laugh when I need it.  

Last but definitely not least, my cats.  They make me happy just by being there for me when I needed someone to comfort me when I was down.  When I needed someone to snuggle with when I was tired and cold.  And when I was lonely and needed someone to talk to and share my feelings with who wouldn't judge me and tell me that I shouldn't feel that way.  

To all these people and my cats I am thankful, and blessed to have them in my life.  I don't know what I would do without them in my life.  I wish everyone was a lucky as I consider me being, by having as good of people and animals in my life as I have.  

Week Four: Aspirations

What are my aspirations?

Well a couple years ago I probably wouldnt have been able to tell you, for i didnt know what i wanted to do, or where I saw my self in the years to come.

Now this is a little easier to answer.  In the next few years I see myself as a Wife, Mother, Phlebotomist, as well as a daughter, and a friend. 

Ive always wanted to be a wife and mother and Im getting married in less than 6 months to the most amazing guy in the world.  As a mother I can share the love I have with my children and share my experiences with them helping them reach their aspirations through out life. 

As a phlebotomist, I will be a professional and be helping people which is my passion.

As a daughter, I will be there to need assistance and offer my own advice.

As a friend, I will be there to support you in everything and anything you need. And in return I need you to do the same for me.  Its important to have that exchange of supports between friends and family members to keep the relationship going strong.