Monday, November 28, 2011

week Seventeen: Affirmations

Positive affirmations.  Well lets beging with I AM STRONG.  Cause I can actually believe that.  I believe I am strong to be going through the things Im going through. 

Some affirmations that I tell myself that I can't always believe or dont believe at all are:
I am beautiful
I am worthwhile
I am worth loving.
I bring joy to people.
I am becoming a better person every day.
I am confident, competent, and calm. 
Joyful dreams of love surround me everywhere
I am feeling vibrant and energetic
My body is healthy and functioning in a very good way
I am an early riser and a deep sleeper
I am responsible for creating happiness in my life.
I am grateful for each experience in my life.
I am openly and freely acceptiong the abundance in my life.
I am organized and disciplined
I feel happier, healthier and wiser everyday that passes
I choose to live life the way that makes me happy and free
I am healing deeply through powerful positive affirmation
I am creative
I forgive myself
I accept and love me for who I am
I am beautiful, warmhearted and intelligent.

I  say these everday and have a hard time believing them becaue I have no proof that these are true.  I just feel that they aren't true and that no one wants to be around be because Im ugly.  Ive been told this isn't the case, but its hard to believe when no one shows you they want to be around you.

I say these affirmations to help boost my self esteem, which is low,  and make myself feel better about myself and my situation.  Everyone wants to feel better about themselves and I think affirmations are the way to go.  Even if you don't believe them you can still brighten up your day some by saying these affirmations.  So I challenge you to say these affirmaitons to yourself and see if it doesn't just make your day a little brighter!

Week Sixteen: Giving

THE JOYS OF GIVING

The joys of giving the small things to people who may have nothing has a great feeling behind it.  Its nice to give to others instead of just recieving.  I believe that the holidays are not about recieving they are about giving.  And giving what ever you can to whomever you can.  I think it is important to see the joy on the faces of people who may not of had a holiday with out you bringing the presents. 

I enjoy giving presents more than recieving them.  Theres something about the smile on peoples faces that is a present enough for me.  Thats why I don't usually ask for much during the holidays becaue Id rather give.  So if your wondering what to ask for this year try just giving and not asking for anything.  I understand this can be hard and you may not want to but give it a try and see what rewards you recieve but just giving. 

Week Fifteen: Higher Power

My higher power is God. 

 I grew up very religious and remain religious praying everyday for the things I have and for people in my life.  God may not answer all my prayers but the ones he answers are the ones that mean the most to me.  And sometimes I even thank him for not answering my prayers.  Like my prayer to die, I am not thankful that he did not answer this prayer,  I am happy to be alive.  God has always been there for me through every time I had a rough patch to every time I had a good patch.  Theres a song I know of that says that "He will never leave me, I know how much he loves me, he'll always stand beside me"  and I truly believe every word this says.  I don't need a chruch to feel close to God, I just need me to feel close to God.  I need me to pray and listen and watch for him in the many ways he presents himself.  Like the trees, and sun, and a new born baby.  He is everywhere constantly answering prayers. 

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

Week Fourteen: Thankful

In honor of Thanksgiving, this weeks post is what I am thankful for!
As I sit here pondering, of what I'm thankful for not much comes to mind.  Maybe cause I have a hard time believing that people actually care about me.  So how can I be thankful for something that doesn't care for me? 

But somehow I can be thankful for that. I'm thankful for the support I receive from my family and friends.  They don't need to be so supportive, but I appreciate it everyday.  I am also thankful for having shelter, water, and food.  Some people in this world don't have one or even all three of these key components to life, yet they are still thankful for the small things.  How nice would it be to be thankful for just the small things in life.  Its like you need to lose everything to realize the small things in life that you can be thankful for.  Like some children at Christmas whose parents are in jail, they are thankful to us that we give them gifts every year, however they are probably just thankful that their parents are still alive and coming home hopefully soon.  Children seem to be the ones that look at the small things and are thankful for those where adults want things to be thankful for like a good job and a house things like that.  I'm just thankful I have you, the reader, reading this blog and hopefully realizing that the small things are just as important as the big things in life, maybe even more important.  So be thankful for the trees, and the weather, and the sun, every piece of grass.  There's a song that goes a little something like this:

I thank God for this day, for the sun in the sky, for my mom and my dad, and my piece of apple pie, for the grass on the ground, for the love that's all around, that's why I thank God every day!

Every time I have a hard time being thankful for the small things I remember this song and it helps be put things in perspective as to what is most important.  the trees, sun, family, and even a piece of pie.  God does marvelous things and we have much to be thankful for.  So as I continue to write this I think of more and more things I am thankful for.

I'm thankful for my family and friends.  My Goddaughter, My cats, for everyone that has made a difference in my life and changed my life in any way, mostly I'm thankful to just be alive.  I have never been thankful to just be alive before now and it feels good to be alive enjoying the wonderful weather even though its raining, and just enjoying other peoples company.  I am thankful for everyone who makes a difference in the lives of others.

So if your wondering what to be thankful for this year, I suggest you be thankful for all the small things in your life, even if that means just being thankful you have blankets at night, anything.  There is much to be thankful for, you just need to open your eyes and notice it.
HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!

Week Thirteen: Forgiveness

Forgiveness according to the dictionary means: the act of excusing a mistake or offense; or compassionate feelings that support a willingness to forgive.

Yeah okay like that's an easy thing to do.  I have a hard time forgiving people cause I feel they don't deserve my forgiveness especially after the things they've done.  I feel it tells them that what they did was an okay thing to do.  And its not an okay thing for them to do so how can I truly forgive them.  Instead of forgiving them I push the situation out of my mind and try not to think about it.  Doesn't always work though.  When it comes out, oh man, am I angry.  You are probably thinking I am angry at them, but in all actuality I'm angry at myself.  "Why did I let this happen?"  "What did I do that was so wrong to allow this to be okay?"  All the anger then turns inward and it doesn't end well. 

I'm learning that forgiveness isn't for the person who you are forgiving its often for yourself.  Maybe I just need to forgive myself for what has happened and stop blaming myself for what has happened.  I'm trying to figure this out and what the best way for me to do this would be.  Like I said before, this isn't an easy thing for me especially to do.  I look at those who are easy to forgive and wonder what it would be like if I could just do that.  Seems to make things a little easier, but then again I would feel it gives the other person permission to continue doing what they have done because its like its okay with you that it happened.  I can't live with that.  I don't know how to figure it out and how to change the way I feel about forgiveness.  I just know how I feel about it.