Week Six: How I am feeling!

I chose this picture because this is where I would like to be.  I remember being in place where I felt happy and like nothing could bother me.  Today I do not feel this way.  I'm not going to go in to details, for not to trigger anyone who may read this.  I would like to get back to a feeling of being happy and not let anything bother me.  Id like to laugh, be able to have a good time with friends and family and be able to live life to its fullest.  I feel like today that is not possible.  But with the help of my support system its becoming a little easier to start to begin to see my life slowly change.  And when I say slowly I mean slowly. Oh to be happy again.  I know my time will come, and that's just it, it will take some time. I believe that one day it will happen for me.  Its just a matter of when it does.  And when it does, well Ill be happy :).  In the meantime, I'll be using my skills and supports, to try and make it through this time period I seem to be stuck in.     I'm stuck in a rut that seems to get deeper as the days progress.  A rut that I can't get out of.  At least not on my own it seems.  I have so many things in my life to be happy for but at this point in my life it is so hard to be happy for them.  I have my family, friends, fiance, my wedding coming up.  Its just so hard to be happy when your stuck in this rut and can't get out.